stars align sometimes

I never should have looked. It's been the plan all along that next year, next spring we would sell this house and look for another. But I just thought....eh...I'll start looking now just to see what's out there. That was mistake number one. Because the house that I have loved for years, the one I always drive by and swoon over, the one that was finally for sale but WAY out of our price range is finally, at this very moment, for sale and absolutely smack dab in the center of our price range.

Damn.

I work with a realtor and she pulled up every speck of dirt she could find on this house for me yesterday. When it's been sold and to whom and for how much and what the inspections said. Mistake number two. I want this house unbelievably much. So much. I know realistically that I'm not going to live there. The timing isn't right, the down payment isn't right yet...hence another year for saving, so I know that I'm just going to have to let it go, but my little heart just can't wrap around those facts. It was meant to be I think. What are the odds that MY house that I've been in love with for years, and I mean a weekly drive by, is for sale, finally in my price range. That's just crazy!

But I decided last night, this all happened just to keep my dream alive and keep me on my toes so that when the time is finally right, I will find something I love equally as much. Today I am driving by one more time to sigh in the yard. One day damnit I will own something equally as wonderful. That's a promise.