worry wort

NOT worrying has never been my forte. I'm very very great at worrying. I've had quite a bit of anxiety this month. Being sick for the past 7 weeks has been alot to deal with. My white blood cells and my platelets are continuing to get lower. I'm now being sent to a Hematologist. I have to wait over 2 weeks for that appointment. Waiting is not my forte either. Waiting for test results is the worst thing in the world. Its cruel actually. I've taken antibiotics twice, steroids, been seen by the ENT, had a whole upper GI ultrasound and now I'm being sent to a specialist. How could I not worry? Everyone keeps telling me not to worry until I have something to worry about. Well to me, I DO have something. My neck still hurts, I still have fevers, still get tired, still feel like doody, AND my blood work isnt normal. Um hello...somethings not right! It's wearing me out, my imagination goes into overdrive and I think the worst always. I know I know.... Two month ago I was all talk about positive-ness and change and optimism. But when something scary happens it's not as easy as it looks. I've ordered a book to try and keep myself calm. Not read too much into things. Hopefully that will help. I'm also changing doctors, mine never tells me crap. He's a good doctor, just not right for me. I need lots more explanations and communication. So... Im hanging in there. Trying to stay positive.