I am finally getting to mark something off my list of things to do before I die! I will be seeing Sarah McLachlan live in November! I got the tickets over a week ago and it still hasn't hit me yet. AND it's at the Ryman! I loooooooove shows at the Ryman. It always sounds so good.
The new job is swell. I'm thankful for a day off today. I was so tired last night I almost fell asleep in my dinner plate. I'm used to sitting all day doing pretty much nothing so all that up and down and bending wore me out! In a good way though. Everyone is really sweet and accepting. I was a little shocked at all the gossiping and judgemental comments. That's not real cool. It'll keep me on my toes at least, not to fall into that kinda thing myself. I'm just relieved to not be sitting there at my old desk, pointless with 4 walls closing in on me anymore.
Class was canceled this week due to Jackie taking a trip to Mexico to see her parents. I was thankful for that as well. It'll give me this week to catch my breath and get used to my new routine. All in all I'm very grateful this week for many, many things. I start getting in the mindset of 'i dont deserve all this' and then think better of it. I do deserve it!
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
There's some good tunes happenin' right now! I've missed these guys! Shit yes!
here's to all you crazy dreamers
Monday, September 20, 2010
Here's to all you crazy dreamers
Dream your crazy dreams
Dont let them go
Deep inside your heart I'm sure you know
Deep inside your heart I'm sure you know
Here's to all you crazy lovers
Love the one's you love
And serve them well
Give yourself some time and time will tell
For he to love another got to love himself
La, la la
Here's to all you crazy dreamers
Dream your crazy dreams
Dont let them slip away
There's more to life then living day to day
There's more to life then living day to day
Here's to all you crazy lovers
Love the one's you love
Don't let them go
Deep inside your soul that love will grow
And deep inside your soul that love will grow
La, la, la
Ready - Steady - Go!
Thursday, September 16, 2010
I feel like someone has lit a fire right under my ass.
It’s alarming how much lighter I feel. It makes me wonder what I was doing to my self when I felt such a heavy weight. That’s not good for you.
Which, got me thinking the obvious. What took me so long?
As I was sitting here pondering on that question, I heard a voice!! This is the exciting part, because believe me, I have been waiting for this to happen. The voice has always been there, I’ve just never been able to hear it before. And what it said makes perfect sense.
Why did I stay here for 9 years when I wasn’t happy? Why did I hang on to this job for dear life when there were so many other things I wanted to be doing? Why did I mess up every relationship I’ve ever had until this one? Why did I push people away? Why couldn’t I let go? Why am I just now realizing what I want to do with my life?
Because I wasn’t ready!
It’s such a simple answer and it really sheds light on how much I worry about things that I shouldn’t worry about. I think I’ll write Elizabeth Gilbert a letter and tell her about my encounter with my Self. I’m that excited about it!
I get nervous about everything that’s happening and I get nervous about making the right decisions but one thing I know with all my heart is that I am ready! I am so ready.
It’s alarming how much lighter I feel. It makes me wonder what I was doing to my self when I felt such a heavy weight. That’s not good for you.
Which, got me thinking the obvious. What took me so long?
As I was sitting here pondering on that question, I heard a voice!! This is the exciting part, because believe me, I have been waiting for this to happen. The voice has always been there, I’ve just never been able to hear it before. And what it said makes perfect sense.
Why did I stay here for 9 years when I wasn’t happy? Why did I hang on to this job for dear life when there were so many other things I wanted to be doing? Why did I mess up every relationship I’ve ever had until this one? Why did I push people away? Why couldn’t I let go? Why am I just now realizing what I want to do with my life?
Because I wasn’t ready!
It’s such a simple answer and it really sheds light on how much I worry about things that I shouldn’t worry about. I think I’ll write Elizabeth Gilbert a letter and tell her about my encounter with my Self. I’m that excited about it!
I get nervous about everything that’s happening and I get nervous about making the right decisions but one thing I know with all my heart is that I am ready! I am so ready.
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
"In the end, though, maybe we must all give up trying to pay back the people in this world who sustain our lives. In the end, maybe it's wiser to surrender before the miraculous scope of human generosity and to just keep saying thank you, forever and sincerely, for as long as we have voices."
I Fucking Did It!!
Friday, September 10, 2010
I quit my job today. Finally, finally. It's been such a long time coming and I know in my bones it was the right thing to do. I just can't be somewhere and do something that I'm not meant to do. It just feels all wrong and wears me down and makes me sick inside. And what is worth that?
I'm excited for the future and feel like I'm actually moving forward! For the first time in a good while I'm back on the tracks and getting somewhere! TooooooT ToooooT!
In class last night I made my best pot ever. I am so stoked! And my instructor told me that I'm pretty good for a beginner, which surprised me. I feel so behind and amateur. But I am learning alot. Hopefully I can retain it all and be able to continue improving. It's like a high when a piece actually comes out looking halfway decent. I've learned that the clay I've been using at home is crap. No wonder I couldn't center. I had hardly no problems at all centering last night. No where near the rib cracking sessions I've been having at home. So that's a relief to know. I thought maybe it just wasn't meant to be and that I'd never learn to center correctly. Centering is definitely the hardest part. Jackie said last night that so many students drop out because they can't center. I believe it. It's taken me over a year and I'm just now getting it! I'm impatient though. But....I Fucking Did It!
I'm excited for the future and feel like I'm actually moving forward! For the first time in a good while I'm back on the tracks and getting somewhere! TooooooT ToooooT!
In class last night I made my best pot ever. I am so stoked! And my instructor told me that I'm pretty good for a beginner, which surprised me. I feel so behind and amateur. But I am learning alot. Hopefully I can retain it all and be able to continue improving. It's like a high when a piece actually comes out looking halfway decent. I've learned that the clay I've been using at home is crap. No wonder I couldn't center. I had hardly no problems at all centering last night. No where near the rib cracking sessions I've been having at home. So that's a relief to know. I thought maybe it just wasn't meant to be and that I'd never learn to center correctly. Centering is definitely the hardest part. Jackie said last night that so many students drop out because they can't center. I believe it. It's taken me over a year and I'm just now getting it! I'm impatient though. But....I Fucking Did It!
Crushes...
Friday, September 3, 2010
A few dresses I've been crushing on this week. The first is from Anthropology (insert sight). I could spend my lifes earning on their things.
Next is a sweet little vintage dress from the 50's. Hand made.
And lastly, an Etsy dress made from organic hemp cotton fleece. So lovely for fall.
Also from Etsy I'm really dreaming of this sweater. I want!
Next is a sweet little vintage dress from the 50's. Hand made.
And lastly, an Etsy dress made from organic hemp cotton fleece. So lovely for fall.
Also from Etsy I'm really dreaming of this sweater. I want!
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