Tis true....
What're you waiting for?
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Today has been a long day. I found a lump in my breast a few weeks ago and finally went to the doctor today. She said she thought it was just a cyst, but I'm sure that's what they say to everyone who has a lump. She scheduled an ultrasound for tomorrow afternoon. My nature is to go into full panic mode. But so far, I've done a pretty good job. Yeah it's been on my mind today but I'm not freaking out to the fullest like I have about similar things in the past.
It got me thinking... And I said the same thing I said to myself during the whole Mono fiasco. I would say...when I was waiting on blood tests to find out if I had Leukemia...if there's nothing wrong with me I am gonna be so happy. I'm gonna do this and that and live life to the fullest. I had a similar train of thought today and it just reminds me that life is short and we should be living every day to the fullest. Anything less is a waste. It's a shame it takes something scary to remind people more often than not.
I'm going over to visit my 43 Things list and see what I can start marking off. The time to start living is now. Today is a special occasion. Today is a gift!
It got me thinking... And I said the same thing I said to myself during the whole Mono fiasco. I would say...when I was waiting on blood tests to find out if I had Leukemia...if there's nothing wrong with me I am gonna be so happy. I'm gonna do this and that and live life to the fullest. I had a similar train of thought today and it just reminds me that life is short and we should be living every day to the fullest. Anything less is a waste. It's a shame it takes something scary to remind people more often than not.
I'm going over to visit my 43 Things list and see what I can start marking off. The time to start living is now. Today is a special occasion. Today is a gift!
For The Birds
Monday, May 17, 2010
I've semi recently discovered that I have a thing for birds. I love watching them do just about anything and love listening to them. They fascinate me. I've also fallen in love with bird patterns. Etsy has been my super weakness in this regard. This month alone I've purchased these:
Love this sweet little skirt, in a navy blue with a white birdie...
But this is my favorite by far. A simple little necklace that I wear with absolutely everything
Love this sweet little skirt, in a navy blue with a white birdie...
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But this is my favorite by far. A simple little necklace that I wear with absolutely everything
Awww
And this I got for a friend that's having a baby in August. So cute and sweet. It was called "I'll carry you everywhere I go." h the birds and a whimsical pattern in red. So cute. I love finding things I love.
Bobble
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
http://www.waterbobble.com/
These are perfect for Bonnaroo! Filter as you drink! And for only $9.95 you can look lovely while doing it with your favorite color bottle! :) Easy as pie!
These are perfect for Bonnaroo! Filter as you drink! And for only $9.95 you can look lovely while doing it with your favorite color bottle! :) Easy as pie!
Discouraged
I had my chance this weekend to 'practice what I preach' and I didn't do it. I've been going over my excuses for the past two days... I didn't want to offend anyone....They were guests from out of town...They're my girlfriends family...What I think doesn't matter to them...
But what if it does? What if I had spoke up and defended what I believe to be right. Would it have shed a new light on some one's view? It was my Birthday celebration after all. I was happily having drinks with friends and family and the conversation quickly turned to garbage. Prejudices. I sat there trying everything to block it all out. I tried meditating, focusing on my breathing and drowning out their voices, but that didn't work very well. Then I sat there panicking, feeling like I was about to blurt out something I would regret later on. Then finally, my eyes filled with tears and I retreated into the house like the coward I was. I was and am so disappointed in myself. I feel like not only did I let myself down, but I let down all the Mexicans and Indians and Chinese that they were degrading. At one point something was said about a murder that had taken place and my friend asked..."was it a Mexican?" and the reply was "of course. white people aren't that crazy."
How sad. It fills me with so much sadness to hear people talking that way. I didn't want to hear that on my birthday. I wanted to ask him what he thinks makes him any better than them. But I didn't. I sat there like a silent hypocrite, wearing my Bushwalla 'optimist' t-shirt, holding it all in.
It really discouraged me. It put me in the mindset of - world peace really is impossible. I don't want to think in such a negative way. Removing myself from the situation didn't help anything or anyone. It only made things worse, I realize. I feel horrible about it and no one's more the wiser because of it. I might have really changed an opinion or at least opened a mind a fraction of a crack. You never know. And I blew my chance.
Now I just have to be ready for next time. And I WILL be ready!
But what if it does? What if I had spoke up and defended what I believe to be right. Would it have shed a new light on some one's view? It was my Birthday celebration after all. I was happily having drinks with friends and family and the conversation quickly turned to garbage. Prejudices. I sat there trying everything to block it all out. I tried meditating, focusing on my breathing and drowning out their voices, but that didn't work very well. Then I sat there panicking, feeling like I was about to blurt out something I would regret later on. Then finally, my eyes filled with tears and I retreated into the house like the coward I was. I was and am so disappointed in myself. I feel like not only did I let myself down, but I let down all the Mexicans and Indians and Chinese that they were degrading. At one point something was said about a murder that had taken place and my friend asked..."was it a Mexican?" and the reply was "of course. white people aren't that crazy."
How sad. It fills me with so much sadness to hear people talking that way. I didn't want to hear that on my birthday. I wanted to ask him what he thinks makes him any better than them. But I didn't. I sat there like a silent hypocrite, wearing my Bushwalla 'optimist' t-shirt, holding it all in.
It really discouraged me. It put me in the mindset of - world peace really is impossible. I don't want to think in such a negative way. Removing myself from the situation didn't help anything or anyone. It only made things worse, I realize. I feel horrible about it and no one's more the wiser because of it. I might have really changed an opinion or at least opened a mind a fraction of a crack. You never know. And I blew my chance.
Now I just have to be ready for next time. And I WILL be ready!
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