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A lot can happen in a week. I don't even one hundred percent know what direction everything is moving in and i'm okay with that. The Daily Love was just for me today. Love it when that happens.

Todays affirmations:

The patient path is the fastest way

I detach from the outcome and trust the Universes divine timing

Today I choose to savor the waiting.

I am so thankful for all the opportunities and possibilities that are happening right now. Sometimes I get so frustrated when things don't go right and things arent happening fast enough for my liking. That's rubbish. That's not being grateful. Things take time and hard work and dedication. Anything worth having is worth waiting for. I know that, I just get excited and ahead of myself. So today I am slowing my roll and taking a breath and letting things work out the way they're supposed to instead of forcing them my way.

Can't rush the good stuff!

And this little jewel has been making my day two days in a row! who needs shelter

do over



This is what I need most right now. I have to live it and breathe it and be it.

I had one long, crazy, tiring, traumatic week. From last Monday to this Monday was one of the strangest experiences and times of my life. Monday was one of the worst days I've ever had in my life. And I've had some doozies. It was doomed from the start and I know that bad timing did nothing to help the situation but it all built up and I had a inner melt down. And if this was a test, then I definitely failed. Epic fail as Dakota says.

So. As of today, I am unemployed. Totally and completely NOT employed lol. Which of course makes me panicky. BUT... I had my semi melt down and cried about it and moped for a day and now I've pulled up by big girl panties and I'm moving on! Rested and ready bitches!

Everything happens for one reason or another and I know that this just means this wasn't the right path for me. There's another one waiting somewhere I just have to find it. So the search begins. I'm back where I started three years ago. Trying to find that place I belong. Thankfully and gratefully I am able to take my time and not jump into the first thing that comes along. Jobs are few and far between these days, especially the ones I dream of having. That means you just have to work a little harder to sniff them out. No more applying for jobs I know that I won't like. No more settling for whatevers easy and available. This is my life dammit!

the best

this is the best version of this song ive everrrr seen. sigh....

breaking bad

i was late to the party. didnt know what i was missing. but man did i ever show up. i know it's a nerdy thing to say....but.... its just true. this show is special.

it is!! its like..... like.. the hatfields and mccoys. like dawsons creek and harry potter. shows like this are few and far between and when they do come along they're special, so it had to be said.

it's the characters. and the acting. it just doesnt get any better. it's like one of those books that you never ever forget. one of the great ones with all the best lines and characters and settings. it's the characters that make you love it. absolutely the story line grabs you from second one and never lets go for a single second, but it's walt and jessee that make it so fucking awesome. that make you hole up in your house and wither away to one meal a day WHILE watching the show and stay up way later than you should on a work night and gives you SUCH anxiety the second your eyeballs open in the morning because you just HAVE to know what happens. they're just that good, both of them.

i sorta feel like i missed out on not watching it over the years, week to week. but then again, there is NOTHING like binge watching something like that. it's had me in hives!!! especially now that it's down to the last seven episodes ever!! what??? that's just wrong and evil. but....very smart on their part. it's not like any other show ive ever seen where theres a couple slow seasons or boring times and you're like.....eh....it'll probably end soon. it's bite your nails, hold your pee til it hurts, all the way to the end!!! i fucking LOVE this show. with a capital love.

bitch!!!!

 

in with the new

Kota wrote a song last week. His first one since he was little. His first serious one. And it's awesome! It's about being different and being proud of that :) and at the end it says something about 'keep the old and bring in the new'. I like that. Instead of out with the old, you keep it too cause it's part of you! He's so smart that kid.

I have four more days at my current workplace. And I'm not a bit sad. I'll miss a couple gals sure, but I am ready for the new! It's just another step in the right direction. The direction I'm supposed to be goin! It's a step up on the ladder toward my goals. And the only way to go is up, right? I'm nervous and excited about this new. It'll be very different than anything I've ever done or been used to. It'll definitely be hard work. But hard work never killed anyone. And I've heard several times that life begins outside your comfort zone. So bring it on!

Summer is just about over and although I might change my mind when I'm working out in the weather, as of now, I am so excited for fall. Bring that on too!!

And...since I'm feeling just soo lovey this morning, I want to gush about my love. Yes, gush. Cause that's what my insides feel like. Gush. Mush. Its funny how he's been there all along, just waiting around for me to realize what I already knew. That we are meant to be!! That I have loved him all along! That he's just been there waiting! It's been a slow growin love which to me is the best kind.