happy christmas!

it's been a minute since i had a day off just to be off. not to go to court or to a doctor appointment or some other appointment. i'm off for the next 6 days and i am loving it! presents are wrapped, well, most of them. i'm still waiting on a package! that's cuttin it close isn't it?? today is vannas birthday so we're gonna try to go to dollywood. tomorrow is her bday party at her parents and it's our annual candy making party. i'm making white trash which i am very excited about. sara's making caramel apples, vans making peppermint bark, marcia is making fudge and some peanut butter thingies and tammy is making rock candy! and of course there will be wine :)

this is what my morning looks like

looove wintersong. it's such a sad song but i love it so very much and it's not christmas without it.

i've got a book lined up to read this week if i have time and i'm making it my personal goal to take a bath in the actual bath tub! i've only been in that thing once since i've lived here.

 

it's cooooold outside! and it's posta snow flurry today! i love it!

 



ray

this is so awesome. i love everything that comes out of his mouth, singing or not. and i would have loved to have read those e mails between elvis and ray. i agree with elvis...there's only one ray. he's the best ever in the world and my number one favorite of all times and him and this song just make me melty. i never paid much attention to this song until i saw him live for the first time. people were screaming jolene after every single song the man would sing. i loved him before that night but oh man...there's absolutely nothing in the world like seeing him live and after that i was a goner. i will never ever forget leaving out of that place and not saying a word until we got to the car. then had to sit there a minute and say 'did that really just happen?'

i don't know if it was cause i had been too busy listening to all the other amazing songs of his or what but it was like i heard jolene for the very first time that night. jason mraz talks about him and tristan sitting at rays feet and weeping were his exact words and i think that's pretty much the same experience i had that night. its one of my most favorite memories in my entire life. i miss him and am super sad that i didnt get to see him in nashville last week. but my favorite thing...it's like that every time i see him. no matter if its been 2 years. its still as exciting and amazing and incredible and mind blowing as that first night. that's just how ray does it.
 

february seven

this lil song is special. i love that every time i listen to it i still love it as much as i did the first few times i heard it and got teary. the lyrics are just perfect for me. it minds me of a few summers ago when i went through my transformation. that's the only way i know to describe it. when he says 'when i awoke you were standing there', i see it as the new me standing there. this song is about myself.

and this is my favorite part..

I went on the search for something real. Traded what I know for how I feel. But the ceiling and the walls collapsed. Upon the darkness I was trapped. And as the last of breath was drawn from me... The light broke in and brought me to my feet.

YES!! it surely did! i've always said it feels like they write songs just for me and this one really does!! i love them.

and this video...i love that scott is all Christopher McCandless at the end of into the wild haha. and i even love that seth is needing a buffet these days instead of a sandwich. i just love them.

have i mentioned that i love them?

ohhhhh yeahhhh

This is SOO exciting!! The MOST exciting!!

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it's the most wonderful time

i love december. lord how i do. november was of course whirl windy. thanksgiving was gone in a flash and so was my black friday. twas all wondy. what wasn't so wondy were the dreams i've been having. those ones. i hate them!! i wake up with such a strange feeling that doesn't go away all day. i had another last night. i'd love to know why they wont just go away and leave me alone. not a fan.

i'm also sad that my boy is going to be 14 in a couple weeks. where did the time go? he's a great kid and i'm so proud of the young lil man he's growing up to be, but where's my little little boy? the one that believed in santa and always wanted to leave out cookies? he's all grown up. when he was at the doctor last week he weighed 117. the same as me. i couldn't believe it! he's so tall and his voice has gotten so deep. makes a girl feel old. but he still gives lots of hugs and kisses and tells me he loves me. :)

i'm almost done with my christmas shopping which is awesomeee! mostly just stocking stuffs and a few lil things here and there. i love christmas shopping!! i love december!

another sad though...the walking dead mid-season finale was last night. sigh. no more walking dead until february. that's entirely too long!!!

i'll miss you guys!