let it go

I haven't had the best day. I have allowed others and their ways to affect me personally and I do NOT welcome it! This morning has been a challenge for me and I usually resort back to a Mraz blog for inspiration and to slap me around and pull me out of it. I skipped ahead at random to read a past blog and found this. Which is exactly what I needed.

Love thy neighbor.

Love thy neighborhood drug dealer.

Love thy cop.

Love thy criminal.

Love thee bank.

Love thee borrower.

Love the happy.

Love the sorrower.

Wait… does this mean I have to love Justin Bieber?

Fuck.

Fuck is right. Fuck FUCK fuck fuck. Sometimes all it takes is to yell out a good FUCK! Deep breaths and remember that it's my goal to be the bigger/better person. Deep breaths and.... let it go.

"Happiness is the consequence of personal effort. You fight for it, strive for it, insist upon it, and sometimes even travel around the world looking for it. You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestations of your own blessings. And once you have achieved a state of happiness, you must never become lax about maintaining it. You must make a mighty effort to keep swimming upward into that happiness forever, to stay afloat on top of it."

♥

Still my most favorite. Ever.

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what's in a year?

I haven't done a very good job of documenting 2010. It was a long year and a stressful one but also one with big changes and revelations. It was an important one that's for sure.

I found Eat, Pray, Love in 2010 which turned out to be one of those things that changes your life so unexpectedly, you're still marveling over it a year later. That book had and is still having such a huge effect on me. It is 98% responsible for me quitting my job. And for following through with pottery, and for getting a new car and for cutting all of my hair off. And for investing time into researching religion so that I can find what I believe. I know all of those things were in there, wanting to happen but I wasn't ready to make them happen, and that book inspired me more than I ever dreamed in a million years it would. It was like a huge epiphany of all these things that I had been waiting for but for whatever reason couldn't let go of.

Just a couple weeks ago when I finally went and got my dreamboat inspired hair cut I came home and asked Van 'what took me so long to cut it?' And then I smiled and shrugged and remembered....because I wasn't ready!

It's silly when you think about it...wanting something for so long but not going through with it because you're nervous about what people will think or because of how you'll look or because of how it will change things. I'm guilty, but it's so rewarding and liberating when you finally let go.

I am excited for 2011. I feel more like myself than I ever have in my life and not just me but the best version of me. I am so incredibly fortunate and one of my resolutions for this year is to never take that for granted. Also, to live in the now. I decided months ago before the holidays that that was going to be my resolution for this year and then who posts that it's their resolution this year as well? My Mraz. Made me smile (:

I'm ready to make more things happen for myself this year. Not wait around for them to happen.

Here's my first favorite song of 2011.

winner!!

Soo this is just too cute not to have posted somewhere. I think all the views are mine, seriously.