i'm there, only i'm not.
clear as day, from so far away,
an intangible place.
so sure in my mind,
so familiar a feeling.
a thousand places in one.
now, a pursuit,
and one of little rest.
bones that won't settle,
only in that haze,
of another lifetime.
i have stood there,
on that fragment of land,
as myself, or as another.
somewhere in the vicinity of the heart.
House hunting has begun and it's so much more difficult than I anticipated. For a long time now, when I close my eyes, I can picture myself so perfectly somewhere. And it's like I've been there before. It's some place specific and I have a feeling I'll know it when I see it. I'm getting closer I think, because I was browsing houses last night and the second this one pulled up on the screen I got teary. It was like...that looks like my house. The one I belong in. So when I went today to see it in person, I still had that feeling, only not as strong in person. There's always a little something that's off. The location or the yard or the angle of the house or something. But I just know that when I find it, I'll know. I am so very excited and determined to find that little place I've always seen in my mind. No matter how long it takes!
clear as day, from so far away,
an intangible place.
so sure in my mind,
so familiar a feeling.
a thousand places in one.
now, a pursuit,
and one of little rest.
bones that won't settle,
only in that haze,
of another lifetime.
i have stood there,
on that fragment of land,
as myself, or as another.
somewhere in the vicinity of the heart.
House hunting has begun and it's so much more difficult than I anticipated. For a long time now, when I close my eyes, I can picture myself so perfectly somewhere. And it's like I've been there before. It's some place specific and I have a feeling I'll know it when I see it. I'm getting closer I think, because I was browsing houses last night and the second this one pulled up on the screen I got teary. It was like...that looks like my house. The one I belong in. So when I went today to see it in person, I still had that feeling, only not as strong in person. There's always a little something that's off. The location or the yard or the angle of the house or something. But I just know that when I find it, I'll know. I am so very excited and determined to find that little place I've always seen in my mind. No matter how long it takes!
