Strugglin

i work with a girl that reminds me so much of how I used to be. i can't stand her. i have a hard time tolerating her on a daily basis. it's either karma biting me in the ass or it's a blessing. i guess those are both one in the same when you think about it. and i am not saying that i'm better than her. i've never been that kind of person. i'm just honestly and openly thankful that i am no longer that person. most days i just tune her out and let everything that comes out of her mouth motivate me to be better and have positive thoughts but some days i don't do well with it at all and i let her attitude and her ways bring me down. which turns the whole thing around and makes it my fault. i let her do it. it's work to stay on top of negativity. it's a lot of work, when you're in certain situations like the ones ive found myself in the past two years. i'd like to say that it makes me a better person and keeps me on the track i want to be on, but i'm affraid that's not always the case.

It's a challenge every single day. I wanna be the kind of person that can love her anyway. And not let her change anything about who I am. I'm determined!!