I don't like to push good things further down the page. It makes me cringe. And that video of Tear Down The House is one of my absolute favorite videos ever. And Save Part Of Yourself For Me for that matter. I wish I could sticky them at the top, permanently. Ah well... I can just post them over and over when they've gone out of sight. :-D
This month has been a strange one. It's so weird how people adapt and settle into things. How something that used to rattle me so hard now just feels like a bump in the road. I've been haunted this month by those old dreams and songs and the other day I parked right in front of a place I haven't been to or thought of in forever and just burst into tears. There was a time when I would have been so upset about it and obsess over it for weeks and felt guilt ridden to the point of sickness. But the more time that goes by and the more years that pass it's just something I know will stay with me. It's just something that happens to me from time to time. And I don't mean to make it sound like I'm unhappy, because I'm honestly not. I have a great life. Just a different great life.
I believe in karma. I didn't used to. And I know without a doubt that this is the exchange for how I treated people in the past. It's the "comes around" that you always hear about. For all the bad, mean and wrong I've done. Sometimes it seems like a high price to pay. Like maybe my comes around is just a little bit worse than other peoples lol because mines a life sentence. That's alright though. I can handle it. I'll just wear it proudly.
Just think....one day I'll be so used to it I won't even write about it anymore.
** I went back thru this whole blog and I haven't written a single word about this shakey subject since December 2012. Go me!!!!
This month has been a strange one. It's so weird how people adapt and settle into things. How something that used to rattle me so hard now just feels like a bump in the road. I've been haunted this month by those old dreams and songs and the other day I parked right in front of a place I haven't been to or thought of in forever and just burst into tears. There was a time when I would have been so upset about it and obsess over it for weeks and felt guilt ridden to the point of sickness. But the more time that goes by and the more years that pass it's just something I know will stay with me. It's just something that happens to me from time to time. And I don't mean to make it sound like I'm unhappy, because I'm honestly not. I have a great life. Just a different great life.
I believe in karma. I didn't used to. And I know without a doubt that this is the exchange for how I treated people in the past. It's the "comes around" that you always hear about. For all the bad, mean and wrong I've done. Sometimes it seems like a high price to pay. Like maybe my comes around is just a little bit worse than other peoples lol because mines a life sentence. That's alright though. I can handle it. I'll just wear it proudly.
Just think....one day I'll be so used to it I won't even write about it anymore.
** I went back thru this whole blog and I haven't written a single word about this shakey subject since December 2012. Go me!!!!
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