do over



This is what I need most right now. I have to live it and breathe it and be it.

I had one long, crazy, tiring, traumatic week. From last Monday to this Monday was one of the strangest experiences and times of my life. Monday was one of the worst days I've ever had in my life. And I've had some doozies. It was doomed from the start and I know that bad timing did nothing to help the situation but it all built up and I had a inner melt down. And if this was a test, then I definitely failed. Epic fail as Dakota says.

So. As of today, I am unemployed. Totally and completely NOT employed lol. Which of course makes me panicky. BUT... I had my semi melt down and cried about it and moped for a day and now I've pulled up by big girl panties and I'm moving on! Rested and ready bitches!

Everything happens for one reason or another and I know that this just means this wasn't the right path for me. There's another one waiting somewhere I just have to find it. So the search begins. I'm back where I started three years ago. Trying to find that place I belong. Thankfully and gratefully I am able to take my time and not jump into the first thing that comes along. Jobs are few and far between these days, especially the ones I dream of having. That means you just have to work a little harder to sniff them out. No more applying for jobs I know that I won't like. No more settling for whatevers easy and available. This is my life dammit!