love is MORE than a four letter word ** ETA

it's weird how we put so much faith in people we've never even met. not just faith but we take inspiration and encouragement from complete strangers. i guess it's just as weird that we can be disappointed in those same people. when you listen to someones music for so long, many years, the most important years of your life, they become a part of you. not just their songs, but the 'them' that you know them to be. and things like my favorite books and my favorite songs and albums and musicians are important and dear to me and when you hold someone so dear, it's never good when they let you down. which isn't fair to say, really. but it's still true nonetheless. i guess that's just the way humans are. it's weird how feelings can affect the way you hear certain songs. i'm referring to jason mraz and his new album love is a four letter word. i've been a jason mraz fan for a good 10 years or more. actually more than just a fan. honestly, i probably shouldn't have listened to glass jar right before i listened to the new jason record. i was so teary and sad and let down and all i could think to say was "it makes me feel like he's a phony." and that makes me so sad. i know that that's not a fair statement to make about someone i've never met and that i can't base his breakup with tp on what kind of person he is in general and especially because i've done the same thing in the past, but it has affected the way i've viewed this record. for whatever reason i just can't take his words as seriously and to heart like i have every other time. and that kind of breaks my heart. of course i still think he's probably the most talented person on planet earth and i love his voice with all my heart but he's let me down and it's just not the same. it's like a family member when you're really upset with them. you love them, but sometimes you just don't like them very much. maybe that's stupid and silly, but i always review my favorite albums when they come out and i guess this is my review of this one. **favorites: 93 million miles, living in the moment, the world as i see it, 5/6, everything is sound i currently have a love/hate thing with i wont give up, so...